Chapter One

Being the only person without a wolf made me wonder ‘How can we recognize our mate?’

Story about finding your mate is always the story I love to hear. I always thought I would have someone of my own who will protect me with his life.

However, I didn't expect that he would reject me the moment he found me.

The happiness of finding your mate is not in me, only the confusion and anxiety I feel because I don't understand why he chose to be with someone else?

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5 years ago…

I was only 18 years old when I met him.

The Alpha King…

Or My Fated Mate…

It was my first time participating in a gathering of werewolves, since I was old enough to have a mate so my parents thought taking me to the event would be an amazing thing for me, if only they knew they were right about one thing...

I did find my mate there...

It's just that he didn't want me to be his mate.

"You're Gwen?" Even his voice sounded deep and sexy in my ears.

For a girl who is never in love nor has experience with man only from an amazing and beautiful story about finding a mate, my heart beating fast for the first time almost like I couldn’t breathe.

I nodded "Yes, Gwen Louve" I replied nervously.

He looked at me intently which made me feel shy and smaller.

Is this how it feels? what others feel too when they find their fated mate?!

"Why don't you have your wolf?" He asked straightforwardly and I knew it was probably the first time he had come across a werewolf without a wolf like me.

I smiled wryly "I don't know"

He nodded and I frowned in confusion because I saw no smile forming from his lips.

Is he not happy?!

"Then this will be easier" He said and made me more confused.

"Huh?"

"You see the woman I'm with is more worthy than you…” He speaks while locking his eyes on me for the whole time, I never thought this is what I heard the moment I find my fated mate “So don't think you deserve to be my mate”

"What?!” I whispered in shock.

Is he serious?!

Bang!

It felt like someone slapped me hard hearing that.

My tears fell heavily after hearing him and I looked at him with hatred now.

"I'm a king, it's impossible to be with a wolfless girl like you" he continued.

Stab... Stab...

Again the sharp stab of his words made me raise my hand and touch my aching chest.

"I hope you understand" were his last words before he turned away and left me hurt by it.

God...

Why?

I thought not having a wolf meant not having a mate, but you gave me the best man of all werewolves only he didn't want me, why?

From then on I realised that even the moon goddess was not on my side, I had to find my own future and happiness.

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Present Day….

Forest Riege...

I finally returned to my hometown after 5 years.

Looking around the airport in this small town hasn't changed much, in fact it's practically the same.

“Hello, Gwen, are you there?”

Gwen gasped as she heard the voice of her long best friend, Alice and the wave of her hand in front of her face.

"Sorry, I was daydreaming" I mumbled in embarrassment.

Alice smiled "Are you thinking about something?"

I smiled back, unsure of how to explain that something was making me uneasy.

Carrying two large baskets, the brown curly-haired, shoulder-length, blue-eyed girl stared at her surroundings.

The next town which is close to the hometown where she was born and raised, it has been almost 5 years since she came home and today she decided to return after a long time her father finally contacted her to invite her to become a doctor in the town where she was born.

Gwen Katherine Louve who is the third child and the only girl in her family of Alpha descent, but she is also the only one who does not have a wolf inside her which makes her different to people.

Some consider her weak, strange and unnatural, but those who know her know that she is a special woman.

For someone who doesn't have a wolf inside you, who is always made fun of by others because of that, how do I explain that I also get rejected by my fated mate?

No one knows about the incident 5 years ago…

No one knows that I have a fated mate and he rejected me because he has someone else…

As the 3rd child of an Alpha, everyone was already confused as to how I could not have a wolf inside me, so I guess I will keep it hidden about me getting rejected.

Some say that I'm cursed because at the age of 23, I don't yet have a mate like others who have found theirs since they were 16 years old, but many say it's because I'm such a weak woman that not even one wolf wants to be a part of me. Perhaps they were right about me as a weak woman since I know my fated mate doesn’t want me.

Going to university with humans is the right choice because many female werewolves don't choose to have higher education because they can't part with their life mate, but I'm different, I can be free to be and do whatever I want, because I don't have a wolf so people are convinced that I won't have a life mate, well they, again, were right about I don’t have a mate because he rejected me.

I chose this path because I wanted to prove that I deserve the best things in life, that I have the ability to be anything.

I deserved to be happy...

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Chapter Two

It was my graduation and my father's compulsion that brought me back to this city, back to the people who had started talking about me.

The lack of doctors here made my choice to become a doctor; a good one and for the first time, my father was proud of me, I know my choice to leave the city to studying medicine isn’t what he thought I will choose for my life, but since that night, the painful night make me thinking about leaving the life of werewolf or be part of it is what I truly want as a way to forget my pain.

I know I have no wolf but my heart still aching when I remember the night.

"How are you, Alice?" I changed the subject and asked her how she was doing.

Alice was my little friend, she’s 3 years older and  of course, already had her life mate, who surprisingly was my brother no 2, Rick, thus making her a Beta wife.

But despite that, Alice was still Alice and I was very happy that Rick had her as his mate, because I knew my brother, Alice was the best choice for him.

No wonder she volunteered to pick me up at the airport.

The journey from the airport to the forest where we lived could not be taken lightly, only a werewolf could penetrate it and even though I was of werewolf descent, without the wolf in me it would be difficult to find the werewolf town.

"How is life there?" I raised an eyebrow at Alice's question

"What do you mean?"

She giggled "Come on.... There are no guys at all! I know human men are no less attractive."

I laughed "You want details of my sex life?" I replied with an amused chuckle

"Ew... No!" she frowned and realized what she just said "Forget what I said, I don't want to know"

I laughed out loud and made her giggle.

Thump!!

What is that?

Why is my heart racing?

Thump… Thump… Thump!!

"Is anyone coming?" I said when I saw the large number of werewolf guards standing guard around the area leading to our town from the human world airport.

Alice nodded "Do you know Rolf Titus AKA the Alpha King?"

My heart almost stops the moment she mentions the name.

"Seems to have heard of it, what's wrong with it?" I pretended to look cool and asked carefully.

"Tonight some important Alphas are gathering in our city to discuss the King’s mates" She spoke in a whisper as if afraid of being overheard.

What?!

I frowned "What's with the mate? I thought he had someone beside him?"

Alice raised her eyebrows “How do you know?”

Sh*t!

I quickly shrugged my shoulders “Hey, he’s being a king for what… 200 years? How come he has no mate?” I comment lightly so my friend won’t get suspicious. Yes, even I didn’t tell Alice about the night, no one knows about me getting rejected.

She sighed and shook her head “500 years for exact and nope.. he still has no fated mate”

What?! How come?!

My eyes widened in shock after hearing that; he said he’s with the woman he brought that night. I thought he would claim her after he rejected me.

Alice, as if understanding what I was thinking said "No Gwen, he has his wolf, the mighty 'Wolf' but for a long 500 years he has no fated mate" She spoke like it was my question and I just gave her a small smile.

I was surprised to hear that..

Then how did he live without a mate all this time?

So, who is the woman he brought that night?

The woman who is the reason why he rejected me is because I am not good enough to be the fated mate of an Alpha king.

As Alice's car pulled into the garage and we walked together while pulling my suitcase, I saw that my father's house, the Alpha's house, was full of people.

It seems that 5 years running from him is useless because the day I come back home was the day that I will see him again for the first time after that night.

What will he think when he sees me here?

What should I do when I see him after all this time?

O Lord, give me strength

I saw someone standing at the entrance and from the look in his eyes I knew he wasn't waiting for me but my friend, his mate.

"Alice..." He let out a sigh of relief and hurriedly kissed her cheek then hugged her tightly like a couple who hadn't seen each other for a long time.

I rolled my eyes lazily and snorted "Hello to you too, brother, the Beta" I greeted Rick who smiled as he released his hug and came forward to hug me.

Compared to my relationship with my first brother, Ryan, my relationship with Rick is much warmer, maybe because from a young age he was not taught to be responsible as an Alpha, unlike Ryan who always had this obligation from an early age.

People who see us together will definitely know that we are siblings, with our shared brown curls, but Rick's hair is short and we have our mother's rare sea-blue eyes that people can easily recognize us.

"You finally remembered to come home too, little brat" Rick teased and locked my head in his armpit, just like we used to do since we were young.

"How come you're not busy like the others? Is the Beta position not important?" I teased him who responded by rolling his eyes lazily.

We started to enter the house together, but this time without the suitcase, because Rick had told someone to bring it to my room on the 4th floor.

My father's house had 4 floors. The 1st floor was for the guest room, maid, meeting room and other things my father needed for work. The second floor was my parents' room, Ryan's room, as the future Alpha, important guest rooms, reading room, music room and others. The 3rd floor was Rick's room, another guest room, the library and a small meeting room. Then on the 4th floor, you could say that my room was actually on the 3rd floor but I hated crowds, so I often hid in the attic and I don't know when I claimed the entire 4th floor as my special room next to a small swimming pool, and there was a barbecue too.

"Gwen..."

The booming voice I remembered called my name. Rick removed his hand that he had placed on my shoulder and bowed his head in respect to my Dad who walked over with my first brother beside him, Ryan, and a few other Alphas who had already arrived.

I hurriedly bowed my head in respect "Hello, Father and guests, Alpha’s"

Whispers were heard and I knew many were asking about who I was.

"Alpha's, this is my daughter, she is a healer and will be the first female doctor in my city" I smiled hearing the proud tone coming out of my father's voice as he introduced me.

They greeted me one by one politely and stiffly, probably just realizing that this was Alpha Blake's daughter who didn't have a wolf.

"I heard they already left for here from the airport" One of the Alphas spoke.

"Let's be quick" Another added and my father nodded in agreement before everyone said their goodbyes and I bowed my head in respect as they walked towards the conference room at the end of the first floor room.

Ryan patted my shoulder as he walked past me and it was his greeting, not being able to greet me like Rick.

"I'll help everyone" Rick said as Alice also said goodbye as she needed to help in the kitchen with the other women.

Although I couldn't cook and was too lazy to deal with kitchen stuff, I knew my mom would be there so I followed Alice.

It seemed like some people recognized me, as some looked surprised to see me or even confused because they didn't know who I was.

Ignoring the people around me, I continued walking until I saw the black-haired woman with the same beautiful ocean blue eyes as me and Rick standing in the center preparing everything among the people listening to her orders.

Before I opened my mouth to call out to her, she was already looking back at me with a big smile.

"Finally" were the words issued as a greeting with wide open arms waiting for my embrace "Welcome, my little girl"

"I'm not a little girl anymore mom" I said with amusement before engulfing her with the same warm hug.

"The doctor is here?!" We turned around to see Laura, my mom's best friend, greeting and hugging me warmly ending with a kiss on the cheek.

I laughed and greeted her "Hello, Laura. Always looking beautiful"

Soon people also started greeting me and started talking about the King who was rumored to be very handsome.

'He's here...' I was surprised to hear a voice from inside my mind that never existed before.

What?

Who's here?

Who's talking?

I was so confused that I heard a voice that I had never heard before, like it was coming from inside me.

I gasped.

Could it be...?

My wolf...?

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Chapter Three

The wind blew strongly in the region, the number of guests made the defense and security of the region carried out not only twice more than usual but up to three times and even four times so that nothing could go wrong so that it could have fatal consequences.

15 Alphas from several regions and 1 Alpha king gathered in 1 place, an easy target for bad people and rouge who want chaos, of course, you need to be prepared.

The atmosphere was tense since the arrival of the Alpha king, with the Alphas mentally bracing themselves to say things that they believed could kill them.

I heard a lot about him, the Alpha king, there's even a book about how he brutally and mercilessly eliminated his enemies so that the werewolf kingdom became as powerful as it is now.

I guess having a wolfless mate will be his weakness so he hates the idea of having me beside him.

Don't know if that's his reason?

But it's still wrong, if he's really strong, protecting me should be an easy thing, right?

Never mind Gwen, don't think about it anymore, let it go...

You're a strong woman, a doctor and deserve another man and be happy with anyone if your fated mate doesn't want you.

Click...

Entering my old room brought back memories...

A small bed in the corner, a study table and a small library filled with books, because reading is one of my favourite things, I just realized that I have that many books?

My suitcase was already in the next room, the dressing room and I walked around to the collection of photos near my study table.

Pictures of me when I was young with Ryan, Rick, Alice and my parents were posted there.

Smiling at it before I threw my body onto the bed and let out a long breath.

Back home...

Wow, 5 long years of studying medicine, I never thought I'd be back here.

Thump.. Thump.. Thump…

My heart keeps beating fast.

I guess knowing that your fated mate who rejected you is here too makes me nervous, I don't know how he'll react when he finds out I'm here.

Did he know who I was before he came here?

knew who my father was before he came here?

Never mind Gwen, forget him!.

I intended to just close my eyes for a while, but fatigue got the better of me and I didn't realize I was asleep.

Ring.. Ring.. Ring…!!!

The sound of the phone woke me up and I was surprised to see that it was already 7pm.

“SH*T, I fell asleep!!!” I shouted and hurriedly got ready.

I took a quick shower, then hurriedly got some clothes from the changing room and grumbled that I hadn't opened my suitcase yet so I hurriedly looked through my old clothes and finally decided to wear the blue dress I had worn at my high school graduation which was very pretty because it accentuated my eyes which were the same color.

I forgot to ask where the event would start and thought to head to the hall on the 2nd floor and found it empty.

SH*T!

Then a bodyguard stood up and informed me that the dinner would be held in the main garden.

While running and saying thank you I hurried to the place and cursed myself when I saw that there were already many people there.

I hope I'm not late, I hope I'm not late, I hope I'm not late, I hope I'm not late, I muttered as I ran.

But as usual, luck was not on my side as I saw a dashing figure standing in front of my parents who looked tense.

Thump.. Thump.. Thump...!

O my heart, please quiet!!

D*mn... D*mn...!!!

IT IS HIM?!!!

I try to act cool or not nervous but my heart seems to have her own mind because it is beating fast.

Sh*t!

Calm down, Gwen!! I try to calm myself but it only makes it worse.

Sh*t! People will hear it!!!

“I don’t know what makes you so nervous but I know everyone could hear your heartbeat”

Gasped, I turn my gaze to meet my old friend, Daniel, standing beside me with a smirk forming of his face “Dan, you surprise me”

“Welcome back, baby girl” He greeted me with a huge smile before giving me a tight embrace.

I chuckle “Still charming I see”

“Always baby” He responded with a wink and I can’t help but laugh at him.

Daniel is a manwhore but he is my long cousin and we were close since young so talking with him like this is what we used to do. I know about his adventure and he treats me like his little sister.

“Why didn't you stand with your family to greet the Alpha King?” He asked and I just shrugged my shoulders.

"Should I?" I asked and Daniel knew that I had always hated being associated with the Alpha family.

He just chuckled and patted my back lightly "I don't think he'll realise that you're not there" He replied lightly, but somehow it seemed like luck had never been on my side.

"GWEN!!!" I gasped as I heard my father's voice call out and we both raised our heads to see everyone looking at us.

Huh?

My heart raced again as I met his eyes.

His eyes lock on me the whole time…

What did he mean by that look?

Why did he seem angry?

I am the one who supposedly be angry!!!

"O..kay, why does it seem like the Alpha king hates me? He looks like he wants to kill me with his gaze?!" Daniel whispered before gently pushing my back to start moving closer to where they were standing.

Angry?

Why is he angry?

Is it because I talked to Daniel?

So, what does that have to do with him?

He's the one who won't accept me, why is he angry?! I thought and tried to find the courage to meet him bravely.

Come on Gwen, you must be strong, face that jerk of a king!!!

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